Well this is a little weird, but called for. So, focus. If I am taking time to write this down, pay attention, as there are so many other things I could be doing right now.
You are 26, not 20 as you might believe. When did that happen, you ask? Well, in 26 years. It’s called time and it doesn’t move with the speed of light nor does it just fly by. Nothing has changed, something to do with math or physics, either way you were never good at it. The day still has 24 hours, as it did when you were a kid, thinking you will never turn 18! And here you turned into a Professional. Although you vowed to never be one. Never be tied down with the strings of the daily routine. How different you thought your life would turn out! But you are happy, and that is what counts.
You are not as great or as bad as you think. You do have moments when you shine and have every right to expect the Ode of Joy to be playing in the background.
But life is not a movie or a book you can just flip through, do the good parts or check the ending – as you are used to doing.
You have to go through it all, even the subtext. But trust me it will be worth it. As they say: “If you want to see the sunshine you have to weather the storm.”
The body you have is the only one you’ll get. Deal with it. Yes, it shows signs of carrying responsibility but it’s nothing a few classes of pilates can’t fix. Please don’t give up chocolates, you are not made for the “my body is a temple” stuff. 26 years have gone by, you don’t know how many you have left, so enjoy the little things without the guilt.
You are human, not a slave. Your happiness is in your hand. It is not wrong to be a bit selfish and take what you need. Everyone needs ‘Me time’. Don’t lose yourself.
You’ve got great friends. You are really lucky to have them. Yes, of course they have flaws, trust me, dear, so do you. It is okay to be with them anyway.
Finally, you are a good person, with a great family and friends. You are creative and fun, but your mind works too much. Things are not always as bad or good as your mind portrays.
Not everything can be planned. I know you will still try to have a schedule for the next five years and that’s okay. Keep in mind though that things will get out of hand.
Don’t spend your time trying to solve all the problems, sometimes you have to believe that they have a way of fixing themselves. At least some of them.
P.S. Please don’t make New Year resolutions every year. You’ve got too much on our plate as it is. Work on the ones you already have and don’t add new ones unless extremely important.